Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Mid-surgery reflection

from one daddy to Another

Dear God,

I know You’re in control, I know that You love us, and I know that You’ll never do anything that will harm us (some things might hurt us, but those will only refine us). Help me to trust You now, even in the middle of this storm.

Lately, I’ve been referring to these unborn daughters as my girls, yet I know that, ultimately, they’re not mine. I know that they’re Yours. So I bring them before You, I lift them up to Your throne, I place them at Your feet.

And yet… You say in Your Word that we can approach You boldly. You say that if we have faith the size of a mustard seed, we can move mountains. You say that the prayers of the righteous availeth much. You bent Your ear to Moses when he begged You to spare the Israelites after they worshiped a golden calf. You relented Your anger several times when Abraham implored You to spare Sodom and Gomorrah, if only [just so many] righteous people lived there. I want Your will to be done, yet I want Your will to have certain traits about it. So, with a deep sense of mystery and faith, I plead with you, Abba:

I want to take these two girls home.
I want to baptize these little girls in church.
I want to have them play with the other kids in the church nursery.
I want them to know and love their older siblings.
I want them to learn and grow in wisdom.
I want to hear their Professions of Faith.
I want to see their graduations – from high school, college, and beyond.
I want to walk each of them down the aisle, to hand each to another Christian man.
I want to be a grandpa to their children.
I want to see them grow old and gray.

What I want, Lord, is simple: while I know they are Your girls, I want them to be my girls, too. So boldly, in good faith, I beg You – can’t they be our girls?

~Jeff

6 comments:

Laura said...

How sweet Jeff! We love those girls too and are praying that this surgery will be successful! Praying continuously! We love you!

Haley Joy said...

"The righteous cry out and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles." Psalm 34:17

Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Thanks for sharing your heart with all of us.

Mike and Haley

Devon said...

just found your blog...beautiful words....

as a mom whose identical twin boys are in heaven (not from TTTS) i can understand your anguish...praying your girls pull through....and you get to take them home!

hmkits said...

Praying for you guys today and in th future. What a wonderful prayer, Jeff. Not a dry eye anywhere; I am so honored to be praying for your family at this time. I wish it weren't necessary for this reason, but I know that God's plan is perfect, as do you, and I am praying the prayer of healing and strength for you, Lisa and all who are close to you. Be blessed!!! <3

faith4113 said...

we are in agreement with your prayers Jeff! Thank you for sharing your heart and prayers!

We pray along with you to our Father God for you all!

God's Peace,

Tim and Marla

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful prayer, Jeff. The longings of a daddy's heart that mean so much! We pray the same as you. So thankful to hear a positive report after surgery. PTL!
Sandi and Tom